"Hi My name is Carlos PenaVega"
You know, I have always found it incredibly interesting that Wednesday is spelt the way it is. WED - NES - DAY. RANDOM! I hope that everyone has had an amazing few weeks since I last wrote on here. I am trying to be more consistent. I really want to make this a weekly blog and I know, in time, I will.
What A crazy few weeks this has been. Firstly and most importantly I give all the glory, thanks and praise to God. I feel so blessed to be doing what I love year after year.
I recently announced that I was joining the cast of Grease LIVE! Being a Broadway obsessed Kid, you could only imagine how excited I was to get the call that I booked the role of Kenickie. What a CRAZY audition process! After a bunch of call backs and eventually being flown to NYC to sing/act and meet the incredible Tommy Kail (Director) and the oh so talented Marc Platt (Producer) I was very disheartened to later find out I was not getting the role.
I returned back from our #adventures sailing trip with a new perspective and was no longer bummed out about not landing the job. Our first Monday back we had our weekly small group (Bible study) at the house. We were back on track! It felt good. No! It felt great! We all decided to take our faith a step further. Now lets be real, why is it SO hard to get in our bibles to read and pray EVERY DAY? Sure when we “need” something from God it is SUPER convenient to be in it. But when things are just perfect its like we decide that we can handle it on our own!
As a group we agreed to wake up every morning and spend our first 30 minutes with God. Read our bible, Pray, Worship and just sit still and listen. Every night we were to write how our day went. This was the goal for one week. Then we would all come back and discuss the difference between a week fully “in it” and a week of just “coasting by”.
It has been such an incredible and uplifting few weeks for me. I truly do consider my self someone who loves God with all my heart. I thought I was taking the time I needed with Him. But when I really looked at my life, and measured the time I gave to him VS the time I gave to others AND even the time spent on social media (instagram/twitter/facebook), I realized my priorities were all mixed up.
My days now consist of getting up and giving Him the first 30 minutes. I am constantly reading throughout the day and always giving thanks and praise.
Just over a week ago I received the call that I was being offered the role of Kenickie. This was exactly a week after I had started my new daily routine. I was in SHOCK. Truly a testament to putting Him first place. Even when things are great and groovy we need to always be “In it”. It is so amazing to me how loving and caring our God is. I had such an incredible and productive last week with auditions and many more opportunities surfacing in the weeks to come. I know that its because I have completely surrendered all. I keep telling myself that all I need is Him. These auditions, these meetings, they are all amazing and so important... But there is a bigger picture.
Lex and I were talking the other day about Christianity. About how Christians give other Christians a bad reputation because of the way they live their lives. They can talk the talk but they choose to avoid walking the walk. We were breaking it down and I said this..When someone asks me what its like to be a Christian I tell them:
“Its the best decision I've made my entire life.”
They ask how my life has changed? I tell them:
“I don't swear anymore. Other than an occasional glass of wine with dinner I don't drink anymore. I don't do drugs. I only surround myself with clear minded people. I love on EVERYONE. I forgive continuously.. With boundaries. I pray with people and for people. I have become more selfless than I have ever been my entire life. I serve.”
They tell me:
“Well I don't believe in God so none of that is for me. I don't HAVE to change who I am or my ways.”
Lets take being a Christian and believing in God out of the picture.. NOW can you give up all the idols that control your life? Don't you want to be a good person. Love on others and live a clean and impacting life? Why does the decision on whether God exists or not dictate you living your life in a positive light or not?
To me God is the cherry on top! Of course I want to love and help others. Of course I want to be a great role model. For me knowing that I have a father (God) that loves me unconditionally and forgives me even when I do things I shouldn't, makes it even that more worth while. In fact it makes me want to better myself even more. Make Him proud. There is nothing like the love that God has for us.
Philippians 1 (9-11) MESSAGE VERSION
So this is my prayer: that your love will flourish and that you will not only love much but well. Learn to love appropriately. You need to use your head and test your feelings so that your love is sincere and intelligent, not sentimental gush. Live a lover’s life, circumspect and exemplary, a life Jesus will be proud of: bountiful in fruits from the soul, making Jesus Christ attractive to all, getting everyone involved in the glory and praise of God.
All in all I know that I am where I am today because of God. He has me exactly where he wants me. I'm not writing this to push my faith on anyone. Testimony is so powerful and I just love sharing my journey. The decisions I make, and the decisions my wife and I make as a team all begin in prayer asking God what HIS will for our lives is. Trust me when I tell you that living this God centered life is not easy. But I can’t imagine a time in my life when I was more complete and reassured. I was that kid who complained about going to church every weekend. I was that guy who had a sailors mouth and could care less about how I sounded. I'm currently about to begin my 4th year since I was baptized again. This time its different. This time I made the decision and like I said before,
“Its the best decision I've made in my entire life.”
Alexa and I have taken a break from social media and internet this week. We agreed that we could post ONE blog and tweet it out. That's it. NO instagram. No twitter. No internet surfing. NOTHING. Crazy how much we rely on those things to fill our time. I literally had to delete the apps from my phone so that I would not accidentally scroll through. I actually did it a few times on Monday without even realizing it. We have too many distractions around us. I have gotten so much work done the past few days due to the fact that I cant just surf on the internet for hours procrastinating. Sadly I think this is the most I've ever typed out in a long time. So that’s it. A crazy amount in just one blog. I look forward to sharing more of my life and walk with Christ in the weeks to come. We all need to be here for one another. Stop holding grudges. Stop allowing society to mold how YOU live your life. I wake up every day and I tell myself that I am a world changer. Regardless of your religious beliefs. Regardless of your past. Regardless of what you did 20 minutes ago. TODAY, RIGHT NOW, is a new day, a new moment in your life that you can do something. Lets stop living for ourselves and start living for one another. YOU are a world changer.